Good Sunday afternoon dear readers. I have been keeping an online journal for about fifteen years now and have asked myself why I keep this journal several times. I don’t get a lot of comments and as far as I know not a lot of traffic here at all in general, for several reasons. So, why do I keep coming back to this path of sharing my thoughts? I started blogging just after our son was born and the Lord moved us from the Willamette Valley to the Palm Springs of Washington. Our son was about three months old, my husband had a job wherein he needed to travel and work Saturdays from time to time, and we attended church every Sunday. In those days I was trying things like small group through the church, mom’s club, mommy and me classes, MOPS and other such activities to connect with other ladies. I would go to baby showers even if I knew no one because it was for a gal who also went to the same church, again in hopes of meeting people. I kept up with letter writing with people from “back home” and had monthly visits with my in-laws as well as visits with my mom and step-dad.
It’s an interesting thing for me when people say having a baby in 2020 is isolating, maybe because they want the rest of us to think they are completely disconnected yet I see large groups of people be they family or friends meeting up all over the place. I see small and large groups both in person and via the always truthful internet. *small smile/sideways look* When this pandemic (called COVID 19) started back in March of this year my husband had a business trip not to long after that was unavoidable so the kids and I headed to the Village of Meridian, only to find it packed with people. It was oddly normal especially during a pandemic. We decided to leave pretty quick because people weren’t just there but considerably more rude than they used to be about the flow of people around them. It was a tense and uncomfortable feeling so we left. Then last night (it’s now December) we thought we would check out the lighted walk in Caldwell since it’s outside and you can make your own spacing. Again, both large and small groups, we took a side step to get out of the large group that was going the same direction as we were going and that got us out of that setting yet still outside enjoying a fun lighted walk, making it easier to keep our distance which we greatly appreciated.
Since the Lord moved our family of four to Idaho it has been quite a change in that our two growing blessings have entered their teen years and I have simply quit trying so hard to connect with the outside world. I don’t blog as much, I keep a private Instagram account where I vaguely share glimpses into our humble life, and I pen notes but not nearly as often as I once did. I call people and visit with others in our neighborhood as well as at the grocery store, but really, I feel like I’m just done. When we first moved here we attended and got involved in a local church for a year but when we missed several Sundays I heard from our son’s Chimes director asking if he was okay. She was kind to ask and though we had reached out to several people in the congregation we simply didn’t connect with any of them. We have since invited people to our home and the ones we have the purest conversations with are the ones who don’t claim to be believers. They straight up don’t agree with some of the choices we make and likewise for us, but he conversations are honest and pure and the time is enjoyed.
Sometimes we are as isolated as we make ourselves to be, actually, more often than not life is this way. We choose to keep old friends and to fill our calendar with time spent with biological family and old friends this way we are comfortable where we are and how we choose to live our life. There is nothing wrong with keeping these relationships, please understand that. The question is, are they who you have fellowship with? Some people can honestly answer “yes” to this question and that’s a rich blessing. This is a relationship that is rich on so many levels and one to be cherished.
If you are in a season of life where you are looking for fellowship, be careful to pray that the Lord would be in and about the conversations you have be they with strangers in a church building or anywhere else. That He would hold your tung when He didn’t want you to speak and that He would bless the conversation you have with others.
My closing question for you, dear reader is this, are you careful in sharing your thoughts with others in this season of life? Do you pray before you speak with others be it in person or on the internet? Wherever you are in life be sure you are praying always and seeking the Lord’s will in your life. Please share in the comments how you share things in conversation with those you make time to communicate with be they in person or long distance. Sincerely, Mommy of two growing blessings & so much more!